When you abandon yourself to manage someone else’s experience — trying to control how they receive you, strategizing your words, monitoring their reactions — you become invisible. Not because they can’t see you, but because you aren’t there to be seen. You’ve left.
Joe points this out bluntly: “You can’t be seen or heard when you’re not in yourself. How could I ever see you — you’re not you. You’re running away from yourself to manage me.”
The effect cascades. If you’re abandoning yourself and the listener is empathetic, they’ll unconsciously take on your self-abandonment. If someone scared is talking to me, I get scared. If someone is abandoning themselves, an empathic listener starts abandoning them too. The very thing you fear — not being seen — is caused by the strategy you’re using to prevent it.
The deeper root: a childhood pattern where happiness seemed dependent on managing someone else’s emotional state. The caretaker who couldn’t be made happy, the unpredictable parent. The lesson learned was “abandon yourself to manage them.” The unlearning is simply: listen to yourself.
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